My dad is here!! :)
Yesterday I had no breaks. Today I started nap time early. And I think I got a B on that test, which would be disappointing (I’m really striving for a 4.0) but it could be a lot worse.
Also I had oatmeal raisin cookies for lunch.
All in all, good day.
And now I’m off to nap. :)
One of the things I hate is that if you aren’t bipolar, OCD, autistic, ect, it’s considered perfectly acceptable to be all “ha ha I look autistic” “feeling a little bipolar today”, but if you actually do have a mental disorder, then god forbid you talk about it, you attention-seeking over-dramatizing romanticizing monster.
this is the realest thing I’ve ever read
i just looked at the study guide (which is short and simple and helpful) and almost cried. so yeah, i’m failing my test tomorrow. but i had a fucking 16-hours-with-no-break day and i don’t care at this point. also she drops the lowest test grade. so now i’m showering and getting in bed, maybe with a cup of tea, and possibly crying myself to sleep (just from sheer exhaustion, not because i’m sad; i’m actually in a really really good place right now, i’m just worn out).
i remember even just a year ago, i’d see pictures all the time of people with captions saying “i’m ugly” and stuff like that
but now, just about every day on my dash, it’s gotten to be like a thing where people will say “my hair looked super cute today” or “i’ve been feeling so body positive lately”
how awesome is that
My day started at 6 AM and I literally didn’t have a single minute of down time until 10 PM. And now I’m doing homework and all I want to do is sleep and cry and scream but I need to be prepared for class tomorrow and I have work at 6:30 again so morning is not an option. I’m just so fucking tired.
I finished a book and now all I want is to read it but it’s done and there’s a hole left over that I can’t fill and dammit finishing a book shouldn’t be physically painful.
EVERYONE PLEASE KNOW IT GETS BETTER. I WAS SO SICK TWO YEARS AGO AND NOW I AM TWO YEARS INTO RECOVERY AND IM STILL ALIVE WHICH IS A MIRACLE!!!! I THOUGHT I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN RECOVER BUT ITS SO IMPORTANT TO KNOW THAT RECOVERY IS THE KEY TO BECOMING A HAPPIER, HEALTHIER PERSON. I LOVE YOU ALL. PLEASE. SMILE.